The Fuck Rampage Is Over

You were all
Using me
And maybe I you,
But I changed my mind
About being used.
I was looking for something
That doesn’t exist
It comes in a package
The wrong size
And none of you Lotharios
Have ever encountered it.
Oh sure
You’ll change for the right girl
But I am
The wrong girl.
I am too much
And you are too little
No one can reach
Into a heart and heal the hurt
Crueler are those who pretend to try.
I have nothing
To share
That you deserve,
Just infinite resentment at others
For things that are my own fault.
Thanks for getting me out of the marriage
For showing me how sex could be
Before the offer expired…

Now leave me with my toys
My Barbies
And my G.I. Joes
Because there is no guidance
And I don’t trust my own.
Fire sale is done
Closing my doors
All stock has been taken
So don’t bother to bid.
And I will be in here
Alone as always,
Trying to figure out
What’s left.

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16 comments

  1. I kid you not I have come to this realisation this week also. Had 6 months of fun and now its not fun anymore, so I choose not to go any further. Thankyou for all your wonderful posts and. Good luck in your future posts.

    • I am getting so many of these admissions privately as well. It’s a very interesting place to be. Feeling extremely grateful. PS- I may have socked one or two dudes away for a rainy day:-)

  2. I’ve read and re-read this and I am still not sure what I feel…I don’t think that’s a bad thing either…

  3. I HOPE THIS WAS WRITTEN AS A POEM BECAUSE THAT’S THE WAY I READ IT IN MY HEAD. iF SO, I WOULD ABSOLUTELY LOVE TO READ IT AT MY LOCAL OPEN MIC….CAPS LOCK BROKEN

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